Just thoughts

It's amazing how the smallest thing can change your mood, all this crazy stuff happening in the country, preventable things and so much time is spent fighting arguing giving your opinions. There is so much more our energy could be spent on. Making someone else smile. Giving money to someone in need, volunteering hours for a good cause. I could go on and on and on. Its tragic that right now our country is hurting, killing, and fighting. So much sadness, and it's so sad to think about. I don't like watching the news, seeing articles on facebook. Its easy to read them and become a zombie of sadness. It's so easy to wish for peace and world happiness but it's not an easy task to accomplish. I don't know the reason for this post other than to give my own opinion and wish for more for all of us, our children. Wouldn't trade my kids for the universe but boy does it break my heart to raise them in our country right now. I hope and pray things get worked out, people stop and think about the things they say and do. We are all people, we are all human beings, and we sure are full of imperfections. Its hard to love everyone, and your not going to, what happened to you can't say nothing nice, don't say it at all. I wish more people felt this way, live and love your life, leave everyone else alone. Gosh, why is it so hard.?.

Helpy helperton reloaded...

So I have a friend in need...a friend I've been trying to help out with as much as I can and tonight I decided to help her move. Borrowed my future brother in laws trailer....my mom kept my boys....

Got off work and rushed home to change clothes, grabbed the trailer and I was off...got to her house and loaded up the trailer and delivered all goods to new house no problems....

Headed home at a decent 8:30 hour to drop off trailer and get boys from my parents house.....

Did it go this well no...somewhere between dropping off stuff at friends new place and my sisters house (to return trailer) I lost the back piece to the trailer (the board that acts as a gate etc.) Well shit...so by the time I get the trailer back and unloaded I'm checking it all over and realize this piece is missing...well by then my mom is ready to get rid of my kids (they are kinda crazy, they wanted mommy etc.) And so I have the bright idea to get my kids and strap them in and drive back my route to check for missing board. Easy enough right...no not at all...get to pick up kids and my mom is mad because I've decided to drive them back to town at 9 at night (even though they will just fall asleep watching a movie in the truck) so I leave with my kids in tow and with a mad momma....head back to town to run the route checking for the board and I can't find it......ugh
I drive the route 2 times from my sisters house to place I last saw the board and I can't find it....boo on me.

Now I realize this is not a real problem but it is to me...I was trusted to use trailer and get it back in one piece and I fucked it up...so disappointed in myself :(

Meanwhile during the course of the evening...I hurt my back...either moving stuff, or while lifting the damn trailer by myself....

So how does it work like that...fucked up the trust, fucked up the trailer, pissed off my mom, and hurt my back....all while just trying to be a good person....ugh fml right now...I really suck!!

Helpy helperton

Sometimes it doesn't matter how much you are trying to do good and help people out you still fuck it all up.

Monday

Nothing says Monday morning like cold coffee and triscuits for breakfast

Monday

Nothing says Monday morning like cold coffee and triscuits for breakfast

Funny stuff

The other night as James and I were laying in my bed watching TV (he was watching his mini DVD player) it was kinda late and he fell asleep...so I leaned over and shut off his movie. Well sure enough as soon as it clicks off he wakes up and says "Hey! I was watching that!" So I say...sorry buddy it turned off let me fix it. I turn to flip it back on and he says under his breath..."geez,  I was totally watching that!" Haha

Home

Bath tub

For 3 years we rented a home that only had a shower! 2 pregnancies and 2 boys and only having a shower...ugh! Now we finally own our very first home that has 2 bath rooms and each one with a huge bath tub! Yay for me! Awww the little things in life :)

Just wanted to share a pic :)

I took this picture in Bloomington IN at Griffy Lake. Love this!!

Just bored and looking for something to talk about...

It's an early night for momma as I lay here snuggling with my "thing 1" watching transformers...."thing 2" is in bed already and the house is quiet. It was a very fast evening getting home later than usual having to stop for gas and pick up the kids from my sisters house...then dinner and playing, baths and now bed. It seems my days are flying by these days and I can't seem to slow them down. They (whoever that is) say that your kids grow up and move away in the blink of an eye...they weren't lying! Obviously my boys are still young but it's flying by...it makes me sad. It sucks to get so caught up with cooking and cleaning and working that you almost miss out on life...(obviously there are more things in between...I won't name every single thing I do during the day) weird! This is off the subject but did it piss anyone else off that they used a new girl in the transformer movie "dark of the moon"? It really ruined it...stupid jerks lol. Anyway I really don't have any thing else for now...just gonna snuggle some more and get stuff ready for tomorrow and do some laundry (wow I'm boring)!

Nighty night :) 

Things my 3 year old says...

We're driving down the road (we live out in the country which requires us to get places by driving on yucky bumpy roads) and the road we are on is pretty much terrible! So as we are driving and my 3 year old says mommy slow down it's too bouncy! I said jimmy, I am just driving...and he says mommy your not just driving your bouncing!! Lol silly boy :) 

Things kids say!

My oldest son (3 yrs) was laying in bed for the evening and asked me to lay with him. I snuggled up beside him and he put his head on my stomach laying and watching tv. (I will first say that I didn't eat any dinner) he looked up at me and said mommy...your belly is hurting...you need to eat something...it's hungry!! 

Buying a home...

Who would have thought buying a home would be so crazy difficult! Well after about 4 1/2 months we will finally be closing on our home tomorrow! This has been a long drawn out process but totally worth it. It is so exciting to be able to call a place "ours" and home! We went today and painted and cleaned it and now it's move in ready! I have to say I already have a little buyers remorse but hey...it's part of it right!? Luckily it's nothing huge and it's all good! I can finally relax and start enjoying things more now that I'm not stressing over this house. Things have been coming together for us in the last couple months and it's great! The hubby has a new job that doesn't require him to work 7 to 7 every day and he won't be on call anymore and he gets to spend more time with the kiddos. My sister is now keeping both my boys while I work and I couldn't be happier about that, and they feel the same! My oldest (turning 3 in a couple days) has had what I will call issues and they are finally coming together too...he has eczema and behavior problems and we couldn't get the kid to eat properly and he had an obsession with milk (like 8 to 9 cups a day, 9oz cups) and he recently started developing a rash (extreme eczema) all over his body...so I decided to change the milk, and I did and it's working. Along with meds and soy milk he has become a whole different kid! Behavior issues coming to a close, and down to maybe 1 to 2 cups of milk per day...asking for water and eating cereal with soy milk for breakfast and eating snacks during the day and dinner and wanting to eat all the time!! Not to mention he has just started taking his meds like a big boy (before me having to sit on him, hold him down and force him) now I tell him time for medicine and he says yup medicine time and drinks them with no fight what so ever...I'm so proud of him for being a big boy and our next venture is potty training (which was nearly impossible before with all the milk he was drinking)! Now I cat end his "blog" "blip" "soap box" whatever with out talking and bragging about out littlest son (turning 7 months this week) and I will start off by talking about how he is such a happy boy considering he has had issues from day 1 as well. See we found out he had an undescended testicle and a hernia when he was little and just recently had it fixed (well sort of) we had the surgery and they found out his testicle was "abnormal" and had to remove it. Turns out it ended up being a tumor that was benign. Well the next day after surgery he was smiling and crawling around no problems, acted like he didn't even have surgery! Right after surgery ended up having 2 ear infections and still a happy and smiley boy! Well he was put on antibiotics for infections and 7 days later bam...hives all over for about 3 to 4 days, and yet he was still a happy boy! Right after (or during how ever you look at it) up popped 2 teeth! Boy what a lucky momma I am! To have been blessed with such a wonderful life...wonderful family! The good lord sure has been looking out for me and I'm grateful! I can't wait to get things settled down for us and I'm gonna pay it forward! Cause as much as I complain and complain about the silly little things in my life that are exactly how id like them to be...1 it could be worse, 2 I have it pretty good, and 3 some one else does have it worse than I do and need to think about that every time i start to complain! So this girls gonna pay it forward...I haven't quite figured out how or when but soon my friends...soon

Thought of the day

"In marriage, a man becomes slack and selfish and undergoes a degeneration of his moral being."

Robert Louis Stevenson 

Being a mother!

I will start this off by saying...I love my kids, and they are my everything, my world, my loves :) I wouldn't trade them for anything and would do anything for them. With that being said being a mother is hard work! No one warned you about the little things, the sad things, the worries!! So much detail and so much time goes into everything you do. It completely changes you and everything you were and will be. They don't tell you about having to remember EVERYTHING!  Baths every other night and J1 you really should every couple nights because he has sensitive skin and eczema that flares up but only in the winter time. Bathing with no lotion will cause you sleepless nights of him crying and itching with nothing you can do. But you have to wash his butt every night cause he is still in diapers and without proper cleaning every night with cause what I like to call monkey butt which will in turn cause  you to  have sleepless nights of crying and itching! So lose lose forget the sleep. They don't tell you this crap. The number of trips to the fridge for milk...hours of running water and the amounts of spilled baby formula. Oh the sleepless nights... When you get J2 to sleep and in bed and praise to the good lord J1 has fell asleep before 9:30 and you had gotten clothes ready and bags ready for the next day and you actually get to lay your head down for the night and you are so exhausted you plug in your phone and shut off the tv...close your eyes and smile so big because you are actually getting to go to bed before midnight and bam! J2 instant full body blood curdling scream (which not only I can hear decently from my bedroom because off the tiny house, but because I also have a monitor that's on full blast because I'm afraid to not hear him!) so I jump up and I'm in there in 2 sec, after turning down the monitor (since J1 is in my bed asleep, lord knows Id pay if he woke up to the baby crying) and get to him only for him to go back to sleep. Great your thinking...nope we play this game of wake up fall asleep about 3 more times which takes about an hour until I finally just wake him and give him a bottle hoping this is what he needs to sleep well!  Ok so it's alright your thinking...fat man eats and is back to bed by I dunno 10:30 or 11:00, so I come back in and lay down my head, only to realize I have to get back up and turn the monitor back up (little thing) and once I'm finally asleep bam! J1 starts crying (right next to me) so loud that I am immediately woke up and feel like someone punched me in the stomach because it took my breath away (my mom does this too, with a crazy sound that I ever so luckily inherited along with diarrhea, which is a whole nother story) and let me explain this once again that my children are blood curdling screamers when they cry so it's sooooo loud! Anyway after about 1/2 hour 45 min I realize he is waking up crying like this because of his skin itching...so I finally get back up go to the kitchen (for more milk of course) and then grab the hydrocortisone from the bathroom then rub as much as I can as fast as I can because it's a huge fight! (Little things...keep hydrocortisone on hand) so here I am writing this up terrified to shut my eyes for the little lungs of my boys are secretly waiting to belt out once I am sleeping...I just feel it. (Little things... You won't sleep...ever) I will finally shut my eyes about 1 to get up to start my day at 6, so i can have an hour to get myself ready and then 1/2 hour to get the boys up and ready so we can rush to my sisters and I can rush to work to work work work till 5:30 (which is almost easier) then home for dinner baths bed all over again! (Little things...do everything exactly right all the time and life will be grand) hahahahaha. 

Don't share a bed with your kids...

Teach them to be respectful and have manners...

Routines!!!...

Don't be afraid to use the belt....

You can have too much milk!

Chicken Alfredo is different from noodles with chicken and Alfredo sauce ( your laughing but it's true) 

That's all I have for now dolls...I'm gonna try for some sleep :) thanks people